1. Aurora's Garden

Sipping wine from the grail of vitality I seek the answers. Chosen
few have smelled this nectar And fewer have tasted its erotica The
focus of my journey Will shine the light of harmony. Lick the
drops of wine that trickle from my lips. Taste its sweetness For
you are closer to your God And I am a warrior of lost souls. Could
I be the God you seek? No. I am but a lonely man. A fool in the
eyes of the infinite. I crave the light of those who drink of my
grail. I get no response. A man with no tongue speaks no truth
Although, a women's scent speaks a thousand words. Do you
understand me now? It is I who wallows in Aurora's garden. You
must leave I now seek tranquility. Can this be found in the arms
of you? No. I think not. Smell upon my rose. Its fragrance is of a
virgin, pure and sweet. Its petals, soft like skin. Caress it.
Enjoy the feeling of life in your fingertips. Hold me close Let
our bodies become one. For then we are strong. Fear not, the pain
will soon be gone. A life of pleasure now begins. Here in Aurora's
garden.
 

2. Amour Of The Harp

Fear not my angel for the silent dove will take flight again. You
will never need your tears as long as the air is free to soar. So
smell the flower of hope and indulge in its sweet pollen. Examine
your body for it is a product of extreme beauty. Never enter a
state of lust without a vision of me and together we will rock the
pillars of heaven through a state of ecstasy. We watch the sun set
deep within the sky. we lose all thoughts of yesterday. Look deep
into my eyes and see the trust in me for I am a power stronger
then man. I am poetry in its purest form. Open your heart. Release
your soul Let me show you wonders you could only imagine. Let me
show you Amour of the harp.
 

3. Tears Of The Beautiful

Please walk from the shadows. I want to see your eyes. They shine
of lost souls and compassion for life. I don't understand why do
you cry? The tears of the beautiful dry like moisture on a winters
day. Such happiness in her face and radiance in a smile. Although
I cannot hear her voice she speaks with the tongue of an angel.
Two souls dance in Novembers air depending on each others trus.t
Silently turning in circles following the soft violins. Can I be
so bold, as to ask for a kiss? All I dream is her, I've known her
forever. Please take my hand now And I'll lead you to the light.
Yet still confusion erupts. How can beauty as such weep in sorrow?
Embrace me and I promise the pain will diminish.
 

4. My Agony, My Ecstasy

Gorge in my darkness, for all to laugh at me. My undying love,
that you hold in chains. Bound by reality, controlling my every
thougt. Visions of your beauty, deep in my memory. Please try to
forgive me. The pain always returns. Yesterdays smile is tomorrows
tears. Oh God, What have I done? Our love together was strong. A
bond between two souls. Lost within my slumber. Tonight I sleep
alone. My mind no longer lusts, My heart no longer loves. Half my
life is gone from me. A mistake I must endure. Containing my
emotions, from time we spent alone. Surrender to my past, live
with a false sense of pride. Every time I close my eyes I yearn
the sweet scent of you Always remember the love we made and
cherish It's silent beauty The softness of your touch, the warm
glow of your skin Is in my every fantasy. Your velvet lips upon my
neck will release my torture inside.
 

5. Bestow My Desire

My hands are bound, by the sound of a bell. A chime I cherish and
respect. A divine song, played upon my chest and echoing through
my soul. Not a voice, nor any angel can bring me to my knees
faster, then the softness of it's touch. Drowning my strength, as
it turns into my tears. Weakness prevails as I'm swallowed deep
into trance. Whispering tones, emerge from my bliss. They surround
my heart in gold. To only touch the physical side would lock me in
for eternity.
 

6. Chorus Of Jasmine

Between my love, and my heart lies a weeping willow. Shading the
secret of our yearning. This perfect place is ours. But the
sunrise is mine. It will always remind me of our passion. Gaze
into It's beauty and lose yourself in my arms. For this is a night
of pure perfection and nothing can take that away. Now my Eden has
a queen and I will stop at nothing to give you my rhapsody. Please
accept my life and in exchange, give yourself to me. You will have
no fears. I will protect you until I die but without you, my death
is certain. You're my inspiration. You're my thoughts and dreams.
I need your love. I need your sunshine. You're the one.
 

7. Sadness Rains

Mournful overcast, sorrowful state. Gray distant sky, pensive
turmoil. In heavy spirits, wretched, forlorn. Joyless and dismal,
stricken with grief. Lightning evades a world overhead. Angels in
tears, sadness rains. Pouring tear drops, from heavens above.
Essence of purity, on hell stricken land. Blind to the fact, no
shame in unleashed. Buried in agony, the storm prevails. One with
sadness, joined eternally. Wallow in misery, 'till death do us
part.
 

8. A Dirge Of Sorrow

Bury my face in rotten love once sweet. Engulfed in kisses of
utmost devotion. My conscience tells me to leave it all behind as
I wander into a world of heartache. To remember once, a life
shared by two. In the midnight air, the love was ours. To my
surprise, It's now only mine as my blind eyes sparkle in
twilight...Alone. Now I speak to your grave in a childish voice as
a burning passion entwines me. An elephant caught in the spiders
web, I'm at a loss without you. I rest my head upon your stone and
caress engravings of thought. All that's left is remembrance of
life. Is it to late to say good-bye?
 

9. Nothing Earthly Save The Thrill

(Sorrow) Fearless is the heart of he who divides the Gods. For I
could never expose my heart to such madness. Can you hear it
calling? Can you hear the sound? The bell tolls once for every
hour in my life. Each chime tells a new tale. Tales of sorrow, and
pain. But when will it play the song of love? Drowning in this sea
of misery, I never lose hope. Can you see why I carry such a
mountain of pain? I never thought you could. I only hoped you
would (Promise) How did you find me? It does not matter now. The
only thing that exists is our fears. I can feel your pain
inflicted by the ones who care not and I promise to mend your
broken heart. (Hunting) An endless search to free my soul. This
night I shall not fail. No man can escape this madness. I will
find the last of the dogs. Imprisoned by their own black hearts.
There is no escape from my tenacious grip. (Punishment) Look at
me. Stare into the eyes of your Messiah. It is I who decides who
lives and who dies. On this night you shall witness my conquest.
How dare you violate what belongs to me? Now beg me for your life
and watch as I laugh at your tears. (Clouds) Wake up my love.
Please don't cry for us. The pain has ended and we now rest on our
cloud. Nothing can touch you here. You are safe from the dogs of
past. Our fear no longer haunts us. We only exist amoung the
flowers.
 

For Every Leaf That Falls (1997) 

1. For Every Leaf That Falls

Embrace the silence
And listen to me
Our time is short
And my words are pure
For every song the angels sing
And for every leaf that falls
I will be thinking of you
And I'll blow you a kiss
I used to dream of the blue in your eyes
Now my dreams are color blind
Clenching my fist to crush this pain
Its always the hate in my smile that devours me
Transcending down far beneath my means
A final breath of you to keep with me
Infantile tears are melting the morning snow
And shiver I will, for the heat in you is gone
Never forget to smile
As you look upon this world
somewhere I'll remain alone
thinking of the morning past
 

2. The Jealous Sun

Awaken my soul and open my eyes
Show me the journey and feed my mind
Take me away to lands of green
Forever falling through Gods black veil
Darker spirits than this, have fallen past my eyes
Even through this twilight, my smile lies to me
I can smell the scent of dark and cold winters frost
Deeper in the void we look searching for a golden glance
The jealous Sun is burning for me
So many years my heaven has wept
25 winters of mourn
In darkness I reach out for light
Sighs from above
Rain down on me
Pitiful heart
Always alone
Face down I lay, I'm forced to lick the earth
Cold rain drops far, covering me, soothing my pain
Swelling eyes, fill with blood, blinding me, visions of red
Bitter sweet, taste of life, broken man, I spit on your gift
 

3. Dawn Breaks

Dawn Breaks
And here we walk eluding the night
Telling you tales of how I am lost
You know things now that I can't explain
And I must avoid your beg for words

I can see by the look in your eyes
The trust you once had is gone

I can't hide from what I am
Come with me and leave this behind
Close your eyes and dream of me
Waste not your time for now dawn breaks

Shield myself from the tears on your cheek
Open my arms to greet your embrace

Hold me closely and absorb my warmth
Let me go now and tremble alone

And here we walk eluding the night
Telling you tales of how I am lost
You know things now that I can't explain
And I must avoid your beg for words

I can't hide from what I am
Come with me and leave this behind
Close your eyes and dream of me
Waste not your time for now dawn breaks

Together we can hear
The screaming butterfly
United as one
Gods will fall to their knees
 

Of Sculptured Ivy And Stone Flowers (1999)

1. With Rue And Fire

Walking alone with a tempting grin to follow the voice that guides
a small frown. Sobs echo past these blinded eyes and deny me of my
happiness. Dismal shades of light brightens my path to solitude
and sympathy. In some sick way I enjoy my pain. It always seems to
indulge me. Frozen walls of ice guard my every dream, protecting
me from what seems real. With rue and fire, all demons are cast
away. With water and stone, the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns
and glass, I'm tortured with love. In tears and blood, I forgive
you once again. This day, I remember the cloudy sky In which I
traveled high above. But now my wings are broken and I am left
alone.
 

2. The Jealous Sun

Awaken my soul and open my eyes. Show me the journey and feed my
mind. Take me away to lands of green. Forever falling through Gods
black veil. Darker spirits than this, have fallen past my eyes.
Even through this twilight, my smile lies to me. I can smell the
scent of dark and cold winters frost. Deeper in the void we look
searching for a golden glance. The jealous Sun is burning for me.
So many years my heaven has wept. 25 winters of mourn. In darkness
I reach out for light Sighs from above rain down on me. Pitiful
heart always alon.e Face down I lay, I'm forced to lick the earth.
Cold rain drops far, covering me, soothing my pain. Swelling eyes,
fill with blood, blinding me, visions of red. Bitter sweet, taste
of life, broken man, I spit on your gift.
 

3. Suffer The Red Dream

I can see the twilight and twisted shadows it creates. I can hear
the heartbeat of lifes lost sorrow. Never once can one man dream
the absence of a holy shrine. Eating dirt to fill this void that
remains empty and dry. Liquid from my tears that plummet for
eternity, help to drown the flowers and sprout yet another cry.
For all these fallen angels and the Gods in which they serve,
where will they go when it all comes crashing down? Your smile
doesn't help me and your laughter holds no joy. I never asked for
your pity, or your worthless love. All of this means nothing to a
heart that does not beat, for this is no salvation and the
darkness shrouds my face. In between this granite frown and a
smile made from blood, the placement of my hands shall cover my
eyes of black. No words can leave my mouth for my throat is coarse
and dry, and my legs quake beneath me, falling before my pain.
Kneel before the suffering and cover your face with earth. Smother
yourself with elegance and dream the dream of red.
 

4. All The Beauty Twice Again

A moonlit breeze softly flows past the ancient night. Always
calling out to the saints who hear nothing. Never to see the
royality of age, and the beauty of life. Fortune comes for all
man, inside a fragile wish. Forever sending guides of hope unto
this very flame. To burn away every dream. All the beauty, twice
again. To whisper in the wind. Follow me to the edge of the sun,
where only the coldest of hearts can survive. Laughing to mock me,
in sadness we dwell. Standing alone, all time stands still, for
you.
 

5. Reaping Forest Calm

Cowards form the veil. Sampling of the salt. Desire looking glass.
In evening they shall come. Pity stains our hands. Insects bite my
eyes. Forever calling home. Reaping forest calm. Long painful
hymns, a dirge of blackened day. Falling to my knees to kiss the
horses tongue. Moonlight invades, cancerous lust. Drawing a smile,
bold men have tried. With sugar we taste, through darkness we
fall. In memories lost hope, I seal my eyes. Through vertigo's
touch, and a northern winds breeze, onward I search and forever
I'm lost. It feels like an eternity since I last saw the light on
your face, and if I recall, you left me the wind and taught me to
fly. I must have you for one last time and I will pay for my sins
with one thousand lashes from the roses stem across the very chest
that holds my beating heart.
 

6. For Every Leaf That Falls

Embrace the silence and listen to me. Our time is short and my
words are pure. For every song the angels sing and for every leaf
that falls, I will be thinking of you and I'll blow you a kiss. I
used to dream of the blue in your eyes, now my dreams are color
blind. Clenching my fist to crush this pain, Its always the hate
in my smile that devours me. Transcending down far beneath my
means. A final breath of you to keep with me. Infantile tears are
melting the morning snow. And shiver I will, for the heat in you
is gone. Never forget to smile as you look upon this world.
Somewhere I'll remain alone thinking of the morning past.
 

7. Serenity Forgotten

A feather falls and ripples cross the pond. Reaching the end of
nothing, turning stone to dust. Careless are the children who fail
to see the means. Splash away the visions of serenity forgotten.
 

8. Forever With Unopened Eye

Enjoy the sunlight and ride the winds. Forever warm, for I see
now, happiness facades my sorrow. This outer smile is torn by
grief, and my sunlight soon fades away, and I watch in silence.
Lost here in a poetic trance, my paradise pounds inside my chest.
I remember the days forever with unopened eye. As quickly as it
all began, the darkness overwhelms my joy. How is this so? How can
it all be gone? Is there no solution? Welcome to my mind. Is there
no help for me? Forever with unopened eye.
 

9. Dawn Breaks

And here we walk eluding the night. Telling you tales of how I am
lost. You know things now that I can't explain. And I must avoid
your beg for words. I can see by the look in your eyes, the trust
you once had is gone. I can't hide from what I am. Come with me
and leave this behind. Close your eyes and dream of me. Waste not
your time for now dawn breaks. Shield myself from the tears on
your cheek. Open my arms to greet your embrace. Hold me closely
and absorb my warmth. Let me go now and tremble alone. Together we
can hear The screaming butterfly. United as one Gods will fall to
their knees.
 

The Knowing (2000)

1. Awaken

My eyes open with dawn.
The sun shines on my face.
I will die someday,
until that day,
I embrace the knowing.
 

2. Harmony Divine

Come follow me,
in the dark void running away from the burning of the fallen sun.
The pain I have shown you is more than anyone could endure,
It is your end as shown in a dream.
I can carry you - far from this place,
only time will heal - the truth I give.
Empathy for the helpless ones,
I can't save them all from the darkness that encircles us,
but now is not your time,
I forbid this to be.
You can't run forever - It touches all.
All love is lost - in the eye of the flame.
Sacrifice in the name of your God,
to splendor in life and wallow in fear of the days you await,
but now is not your time,
I take you with me.
In harmony, I break my smile.
Vertigo, the truth is revealed.
Careless, sin-filled life, mourning,
before your end.
Help me, I cannot see,
I am blind, to all that surrounds me.
Falling, from my grasp, reach out, and take my hand.
Fearful, inner child.
Dreaming, your time away.
Curse the day, I saw your face,
for now I see, your tragic end.
Forward into life•s calling,
and reap its pleasures divine.
 

3. Shadows Of Light

A dream, shown to me by countless shapes.
Visions that will never leave my mind.
Voices that cry out to me.
Saddened by the wars within,
and lifted high above the crowds below.
Spirit felt promises that wind the clocks of time,
and pass me by in a sudden rage of light.
In shadows I am prophecy.
In sunlight I am death.
On water I will always walk.
In fire no one burns.
Falling far from crimson skies,
all eyes rest upon me.
Enchanting winds that call your name,
and place fear in your smile.
I have been shown the end of my world,
and the beginning of the new age.
Red is cast upon my eyes.
I dream of the rain and smile.
Vary your speed to which you live,
and count every last grain of sand.
Clouds invade my thought no more.
Sunlight has drifted away.
May the moon above guide me, and save me from my pain.
Forgive me not, I'm losing control.
I fear the dreams that dance within.
How can I ever leave?
The goad of your tongue plunges into my soul
 

4. Silent Tomorrow

Eternity - A gift I no longer want.
Forever - I can't go on with these endless nights.
My sanity has been stripped away.
Everything is beauty, and I have no love to share.
Silent tomorrow, I want to live my life once more.
Visions of grandeur, I want to taste the void extreme.
Each time I close my eyes, I only wish for my end to come.
No angels sing for me, and the light of my life dims away.
Silent tomorrow, I want to live my life once more.
Visions of grandeur, I want to taste the void extreme.
Destiny awaits me, I cannot carry on this way.
Coward of the dream,
In silence I will rest my eyes.
Crippled by fear, the sights I see.
No means to this end.
This is my only way.
Silent tomorrow, I want to live my life once more.
Visions of grandeur, I want to taste the void extreme.
Destiny awaits me, I cannot carry on this way.
Coward of the dream,
In silence I will rest my eyes.
 

5. In Faith

Falling down, far from Grace.
Confusing me, for these gifts I have received.
Challenging, the faith I have in tomorrow.
Open eyes, to witness this miracle.
Cure the sick, or destroy a world, this gift is mine, to wield its strength.
What's right and wrong,
It's my decision, no man alive, can deny me that.
Cloudy skies, and blood-filled moons, worldwide plagues, and raging tides.
Seven signs, To the end of time, this is all lies, I hold the only key.
why can't you see, I can show you his face.
If every fear of your life, can only be swept away.
Believe in my sanity, carried by faith,
the truth that binds, the words I speak.
Thunder claps, and angels cry, inside this prophet,
behold a new Messiah.
I can take you far away, far from your scarlet lives.
I hold tomorrow's fate and grip this entity.
Trust in me, I'll tell you all of final beauty, and dying smiles.
Put your faith in me.
Falling.
 

6. Searching The Betrayal

I have searched for the words and emptiness is all I find.
The countless lies of love that fell from spoken dreams. (her)
What do I say to a man who knows my thoughts?
I thought I loved you in the lifetime we shared,
but I always knew you were never the one.
Even though you made me your queen,
the feelings for you never grew.
Wasted time in life pass by, shattered mirrors we built as one.
An aging world of broken hearts
and I am added to the long list of souls.
I'll never regret giving my all for you and to my grave,
your betrayal will die. (her)
If we could go back, and repeat this life again,
I would stop at the day my love failed you.
I would pray to above for those feelings to return,
and not let my wandering eyes take me from you.
Know in my heart, that there is a place,
that your disappointment has broken.
 

7. Last God

Please take this away,
I never wanted this pain.
Why have you left me here all alone?
I will always cry for you.
Catching the fallen tears from my eyes,
dreaming of life with you,
all is lost tonight.
This pain is killing me,
there's nothing that I can do.
The visions of your face,
Makes my stomach sick.
You were stripped from me,
when my back was turned.
I should have been there for you,
It should be me that's gone.
I can't let you win,
I just won't walk away.
It's time I see the end, and leave this gift
behind. You're no friend to me,
You've caused me too much pain.
So you step beyond my grasp,
escape this last God's fate. (her)
In chambers light, you pine over me and I can only look upon you and smile.
I wish the pain would disappear.
A frigid breath on the back of your neck,
a soft glowing voice that you always hear.
I'm sorry for the pain,
I'm sorry for the lies.
with open arms, I await you.
An emptiness I can never fill,
a loss of all my being.
Carry away my lust for your taste.
A blue rose for my soiled life.
Reliving our moments over again,
consumes my every day.
No more can I keep going on with this guilt,
You've taken everything that I care about.
Eating away at my own pathetic life,
the skies have turned to blood on this very night.
I will see you again, and I tremble at the thought.
 

8. In Memories Past

The scent of you is always on my mind,
searching for the strength to carry on.
Buried deep within my soul,
your memory will punish me.
I no longer see a future with your smile.
When shadows fall dark upon your stone,
and dying leaves have covered all the words,
I hold the answers to the questions that I dare not speak.
In this darkest hour I'm alone.
A careless walk through fields of virtue,
and calling out to every shattered dream.
Circling the innermost thoughts,
for this is the day I have truly died.
The scent of you is always on my mind,
searching for the strength to carry on.
Buried deep within my soul,
your memory will punish me.
I no longer see a future with your smile.
When shadows fall dark upon your stone,
and dying leaves have covered all the words,
I hold the answers to the questions that I dare not speak.
In this darkest hour I'm alone.
 

9. The Day I Return

I can't believe, the hell that has taken my life.
Stripped me away, from every hope and dream.
Countless days, for a thousand years,
in a cold and lonely place,
I right the wrongs.
On solid ground, and a mind now clear,
it all seems to have left me,
forever wanting no more.
Picking up the shards,
of my broken life and placing each piece in perfect harmony.
This is the day,
The day I return,
to claim my victory,
and laugh in man's face.
To once again take a breath,
and not fight back a single tear.
To hold my head up high,
and unveil my pride once again.
To live a life of normal days,
and sleep an entire night.
Nothing but pain will rest on my mind.
Never forgetting the smile she gave.
Spending my days, thinking of you, knowing
that we will be one again.
Return to me.
 

10. Aura Blue

Today, I am a different man, yesterday was meaningless.
I once saw with the sight of a God,
and I hear the voices pray.
My dreams were reality, even the darkest of all cast aside.
It reaches out to grab my throat,
and squeeze the breath from me,
to show me sights of days to come,
and nights of restlessness.
In a good man's heart, a gift this would truly be,
but left in my hands,
lies a cold bitter fear.
So I awake with a newfound friend,
who begs me to play,
who taunts one tired eye,
and I shudder to think of what I've become,
as my journey has ended, to capture my ease.
My pride has returned,
and life is anew,
accepting my fate,
and remembrance of what I saw, of what I lived.
Sleep.
With closed eyes, I dream of your return and in the darkness,
I again see a light.
A perfect glow of aura blue,
with open arms I greet my old friend.
 

To Welcome The Fade (2002)

1. Not The Strong

How many times have I fallen before you
How much longer can I go on
To raise to my feet, to try this game again
I often point fingers of blame

If only my mother knew the real me
Her heart would break, for I am shame
Not the strong man she raised from birth
A coward, a child, and a scared soul

In my dreams, I can fly away
And look back through tears of pain
Even if I were to never awake
I would still have my downtime

If only my mother knew the real me
Her heart would break, for I am shame
Not the strong man she raised from birth
A coward, a child, and a scared soul

A sweet embrace from honest love
Just won't be enough this time
If I had the cure, to save myself
I would then know how you feel

If only my mother knew the real me
Her heart would break, for I am shame
Not the strong man she raised from birth
A coward, a child, and a scared soul
 

2. Broken

I am broken.
In spirit, body, and mind
Forever cold to faith in life
Mother of night, embrace me
I have not forgotten
Looking back on the years of last
With so much pain to bare
I am broken

Nights forgotten its son of brave
And turned her back on bitterness
Torn is my duality
Judging the force of things yet old
Trivia in forsaken thoughts
Of tomorrow's crushing blow

A calming plea, follow the day

Two fold, I stand to ache
Given to me by pitiful life
Desperate time, to pass in stride
How does anyone ever know?
False dreams, and lesser faith

Can you look me in the eyes
And tell me everything's all right?
If we talk about tomorrow
How can I stop your tears?

Separation of life and mind
Comfort, the quest for time
Suffer day, and hallowed night
In dark realms to betray
Left here for the devouring dogs
To feast upon my very pride
One thing I will never forget
That I am only a man
And I am broken

Failure I cannot fix
False hope for nothing
This is the life I lead
And tomorrow will not change
 

3. Lost In A Day

I can't control when I was afraid
So far away, from any choice I have
Here in this day, I continue to fear
Simple as I am, It's always on my mind

Somewhere inside, a voice is heard
To remind me that I have lost control

I have lost my will, to continue this way
With every waking breath, I decide...
How I live my life is far from normal days
See my downward fall, and allow me to lie

Somewhere inside, a voice is heard
To remind me that I have lost control

I give into my life, and color it with black
I listen to my heart, and hear nothing
If every day is cold, and the skies have turned to gray
Only then will I be happy with this pain

I have come to realize, my trials are before me
These are the rules set forth, to be lost in a day

I can't control when I was afraid
So far away, from any choice I have
Here in this day, I continue to fear
Simple as I am, to be lost in a day
 

4. Within My Flesh

My bride to comfort me
when all seems lost
A kiss upon my brow
to soften my suffering
She means so well
I haven't the heart
To tell her
my smile was forced.

My mother cries for me when no one will
Her words of compassion swell my eyes
"It's not fair this has happened to you,
And I'd do anything to take away your pain"

My rage to help me through the day
And visions of black to cure my loss
I taunt the pain to prove it's real
And greet my facade with a grin

Look what your God has made me
Placing spikes within my flesh
A crown of nails for my sunken head
To shy away from this freak
 

5. If Forever

On the days you long for me
And the cold nights of grey

(Hear me)

I ask you to forgive me
And bow my head in shame

(Feel me)

I promise, I will never leave you
I will not go on without you
If the light calls upon me
I will remain, waiting for you

(Live for me)

I've never felt so empty before
I never cared more for us

(Pray for me)

I promise, I will never leave you
I will not go on without you
If the light calls upon me
I will remain, waiting for you

Somewhere along the days of my life
I found my faith in you

(Cry for me)
 

6. The Spirit Seed

In just one breath
Your dreams will fade
A moment in time
For fear to embrace

The future... is my enemy
Long days.... and endless nights

Pain awakes my sleep
And ends in a silent barrage of calm

Look at me though jaded eyes
Forever see the mask I wear
Never feel pity for me
It's the way my life lives

Beaten by the only life I know
Forced upon the spirit seed
I only wish I had the strength
To say goodbye

At what time did you turn your back?
I pay for this with every breath
And all you do is preach through man
Of how merciful you can be

Then you shall not fail
For every time you close your eyes
I'll be there to greet you
 

7. Torn

(life)
I long for days like this
My heart pounds when you are near
The gift of life
Treasure it, for it is pure
Embrace it with all your heart

Not a thousand years of pain
Would be worth the loss of this
I hold for you a special gift
And on this day, a new life begins

(torn)
Facade the day of forest green
And calm my breath with words of plight
A question I ponder this hour
The light for me, or shadows engulf

(death)
I am the answers you seek
You stand before me
And I see your sorrow
Even now, in your agony
You can have your doubt
For one last time

(torn)
Do I make make the sacrifice?
To walk among the restless souls?
How can I let this go on?
Torn between love and life
All is dead in my eyes

(death)
Close your eyes and welcome the truth
Innocence is so sweet
For only the aging of the flesh
Shall rain upon the sorrows of life

Admire this touch of heaven
Before it fades.
I remember days of old,
And through your grief, one stands clear.
I can see you forge a smile

All these flowers are turning to snow
For all is lost in your heart
It's only her love that keeps you alive
Now's the time for your pain to end

(life)
How can I ever live without you?
This all seems so perfect
So perfect, until I dream of you
And your smile is my sunshine

You deserve more then this
Your saviour has come
A strong soul to carry on
To take you home
I need you here with me
Follow me now
To pick me up when I fall
Before the sunlight fades
 

8. The Lifeless Silhouette

I just want to close my eyes
So I can forget about today
Forget about what lies tomorrow
And only take place in the realm of paradise
To be beaten each day
And lower my head
As if its my own fault
Forgotten about as night falls

Restless nights that are filled with guilt
And invite me into their empty embrace
I never saw this coming
And I now know that i'm not alone
I can only wish that i'm the last
And no one will suffer my fate
It would take an eternity in hell
For my heart to rest in peace.

To strike down this hate filled soul
And give back the pain you've caused
Would only satisfy
My craving for blood.

I will see you in the end
And I will laugh at your pain
So I damn your fucking life
And I pray you suffer long
And all the angels turn their backs
From the site of your pitiful face
No God will save your soul
For there is no love for you
You left that all behind
The day you learned to fucking speak
 

9. Dark Fields For Brillance

Solid shades of passions lie
With countless eyes to stare your sleep
Wallow in terror of nights fetal embrace
Cold tongues taste the fear
A dark vision to scare my soul
And shy away as the madness calls upon me

To close my eyes at the end of day

Welcome dark clad armies of fear
More then novels have told my tale
And campfire dreams that warm the soul
With every moment of every night
The shadows dance the walls
And I know she looks upon me from afar

To close my eyes at the end of day
Evokes dark fields for brilliance

Her cold smile haunts the after thought
A fate for us all to be taken away

From the empty days of hope, deny the darkness
Follow my voice, we'll run far away from here

If only to hide, to escape this life
And live forever, forever in the sun

For all the nights I lie awake
And stare into the void
Just once I wish to grasp
Some glimmer of hope
A cowards reign
The last to know
Forward, down
And through my eyes
 

The Pale Haunt Departure (2005)

1. The Pale Haunt Departure

Born upon angelic dirt
we crawl from filth to rise
Speak my name for the sake of life
For this creed will slowly turn

Light escapes this shell of mine
The pale haunt departure
A dying wish to rise again
And leave behind a scarecrows fate

Only those who have suffered long
Can find the light within the shadows
A first hand trial of mislead hope
For this is the day of our wake

Light escapes this shell of mine
The pale haunt departure
A dying wish to rise again
And leave behind a scarecrows fate

So I rise above to look below
and see the shedding coil
The ascension process to reunite
my passion for life through pain

Your trust in faith

Light escapes this shell of mine
The pale haunt departure
A dying wish to rise again
And leave behind a scarecrows fate
 

2. Swallowed By The Moon

I'm sorry you will never know me,
But know I always loved you.

Will you remember when I kept you safe?
Will you remember when I made you smile?
Once again the daylight fades, and I'm swallowed by the moon
Will tomorrow bring a new day of hope?
Will this experience fill you with rage?

The enemy time, knocks at my home
I can no longer hide
Please forgive me, I never meant to leave
But know that I had you as my final thought

Will you remember when I held you tight?
Will you remember the sound of my voice?
Once again the daylight fades, and I'm swallowed by the moon
Will this experience scar your fragile mind?
Will you remember when we would both laugh?

Memories is all that you have
And I'm sorry I failed you in life
I wanted more for you then I could provide
Be strong and make your mother proud

Don't cry... The tears in your eyes
My time... To say my goodbyes
Heaven waits... My soul to arise
Torture, torture... My pain finally dies

Will you remember that I tried my best?
Will you remember the father I was?
Once again the daylight fades, and I'm swallowed by the moon
Will you look back and smile for me?
Will you remember me when I have gone?

Memories is all that you have
And I'm sorry I failed you in life
I wanted more for you then I could provide
Be strong and make your mother proud
 

3. Autumn Reflection

I remember yesterday
The rain fell to the earth
For I dream of your arrival
And color my dark world with faith

Knowing you would be the strong one
To keep my focus in close view

I thank the heavens above
For the angel beside me today
The guardian of my sanity
The one who will save my soul
If I ever doubt the faith I hold
I only need one smile from you
And an autumn reflection
will deliver me to your arms

Someday you will understand
How much you mean to me
for every day that passes me by
I long for the person you will become

I thank the heavens above
For the angel beside me today
The guardian of my sanity
The one who will save my soul
If I ever doubt the faith I hold
I only need one smile from you
And an autumn reflection
will deliver me to your arms

I am stronger now
Since you came into my life
With a thought of your smile
I remember yesterday
 

4. Dark World Burden

It's all so clear to me now
A fraction of the man I used to be
For every breath I take draws in the fear
Only I know that the worst is yet to come

I live in a dark world, where no light shines through
I carry this burden with every step I take
Thrust myself into a new days end
And focus on the hour glass, to help pass the time

Day to day I push myself on
My facade can fool the strongest mind
And my loved ones can only watch from afar
A single mirror to view the void

Tragic yesterdays, and unseen futures sleep
Footprints in the blood from my wounded heart
My dark world is where I call home
Until the day comes, and the light calls my name

My arcane cell is covered in resent
I never asked for any of this
I follow the path which leads me to nothing
Searching for my smile I lost long ago

I stand alone in the company of none
Cheated by reality, philosopher of the gray
A brave inner child stands strong in refuse
A treasure of impurity will find a way to breed
 

5. In The Absence Of Grace

Heaven is so far away from this Hell, Carried by the wings of shadows pain
Why did you turn your back, And leave me without your grace
Fallen so far away from the light, Courage will no longer be by my side
I stand here all alone, Waiting for you to see my need

I'll give my life for you, You'll see the fallen man

Heaven is so far away from this Hell, Carried by the wings of shadows pain
Why did you turn your back, And leave me without your grace
Fallen so far away from the light, Courage will no longer be by my side
I stand here all alone, Waiting for you to see my need

I'll give my life for you, You'll see the fallen man

I had trust in you, no more lies, I end this now, and walk away
So pathetic it's come to this, If you only could see my side
I live with this every day, and the struggle overwhelms me

For the loveless, And for my wake

Only when I close my eyes, And the day draws to an end
Thoughts of you stronger then me, increase my faith in hate

For the child, And for my heart

Only when I close my eyes, And the day draws to an end
Thoughts of you stronger then me, Increase my faith in hate

Always dreaming of better days, Since cast out from your sight
I'll live with the life I lead, And smile that you're no more

Why did you turn your back, And leave me without your grace
Fallen so far away from the light, Courage will no longer be by my side
I stand here all alone, Waiting for you to see my need

I'll give my life for you, You'll see the fallen man
I'll give my life for you, You'll see the fallen man
 

6. The Dead Leaf Echo

Since the day I let you believe, that a grand life I would provide
I am haunted by the failure you see before you, consuming the echo
To travel the road of our dreams, with my back against the wall

All I can do, is look the other way, and pretend that your face held a
smile.
Not to see your sullen eyes, staring past my soul, into the darkness of
night.
I feel I've failed you, when we both know, I never had the chance, to say
hello.

Far away from your warmth I fade
Silently, I bid you farewell, and wallow in the moment

So very small, this distance between us, to travel so long, and gain no
ground
The very face I see in the mirror, knows the truth behind the lies
For my trust, I hear the dead leaf echo, and the answer awaits us on the
other side

Far away from your warmth I fade
Silently, I bid you farewell, and wallow in the moment

Looking back to the days when we were poor, and all we had was each other
You looked so sad, and almost ashamed to have me at your side

In circles spins my mind, and the vertigo makes me sick

All I can do, is look the other way, and pretend that your face held a
smile.
Not to see your sullen eyes, staring past my soul, into the darkness of
night.
I feel I've failed you, when we both know, I never had the chance, to say
hello.
 

7. Through A Child's Eyes

I once had a vision
the beauty of two graced the sky
It left me with nothing but hurt
For I knew this couldn't be true

Looking back through a childs eyes
I have been betrayed by time
Now I dream with a sense of pride
And I grieve the shame of mankind

I once was left behind
All the promises and empty words
Forced me to walk upon the earth
Alone in the shadow of man

Looking back through a childs eyes
I have been betrayed by time
Now I dream with a sense of pride
I grieve the shame of mankind

I once had a vision
The fall of man before its time
Again I knew with innocent eyes
You should have saved us all

Looking back through a childs eyes
I have been betrayed by time
Now I dream with a sense of pride
I grieve the shame of mankind
 

8. Collapse Of The Fallen Throe

I gaze the beauty with sinful eyes
I dream of the fallen embrace
Rest before me, whisper my name
And I'll break the spine of your love

Squalor brings the insects
That feast upon the filth
Only now you witness
Collapse of the falling throe

Come to me, with arms outstretched
Sweet tears that kiss your face
When the arms of hate are holding on
I'll take what should be mine

A love for you consumes the heart
This cruelty will not be for nothing
For you will be ruled by an iron hand
And somewhere the master shows his face

A grand design of vented wealth
Sail on wings of golden pride
A blindness that will free your mind
To carry the seed for the years ahead

Squalor brings the insects
That feast upon the filth
Only now you witness
Collapse of the falling throe

Amidst pure violent emotion
The eyes tell the story of betrayal
Buried deep within the womb
My reason to be scalded by your sins

My ignorance to be judged
A sworn voice to tell me the lies
The mask will be raised to reveal truth
And the sun will no longer shine

Blood for blood, you will be mine
Through the pain I will rise
Driven by this longing desire
To be the one who loves you forever