Amid It's Hallowed Mirth
(1995)
1. Aurora's Garden
Sipping wine from the grail
of vitality I seek the answers. Chosen
few have smelled this nectar
And fewer have tasted its erotica The
focus of my journey Will
shine the light of harmony. Lick the
drops of wine that trickle
from my lips. Taste its sweetness For
you are closer to your God
And I am a warrior of lost souls. Could
I be the God you seek? No.
I am but a lonely man. A fool in the
eyes of the infinite. I crave
the light of those who drink of my
grail. I get no response.
A man with no tongue speaks no truth
Although, a women's scent
speaks a thousand words. Do you
understand me now? It is
I who wallows in Aurora's garden. You
must leave I now seek tranquility.
Can this be found in the arms
of you? No. I think not.
Smell upon my rose. Its fragrance is of a
virgin, pure and sweet. Its
petals, soft like skin. Caress it.
Enjoy the feeling of life
in your fingertips. Hold me close Let
our bodies become one. For
then we are strong. Fear not, the pain
will soon be gone. A life
of pleasure now begins. Here in Aurora's
garden.
2. Amour Of The Harp
Fear not my angel for the
silent dove will take flight again. You
will never need your tears
as long as the air is free to soar. So
smell the flower of hope
and indulge in its sweet pollen. Examine
your body for it is a product
of extreme beauty. Never enter a
state of lust without a vision
of me and together we will rock the
pillars of heaven through
a state of ecstasy. We watch the sun set
deep within the sky. we lose
all thoughts of yesterday. Look deep
into my eyes and see the
trust in me for I am a power stronger
then man. I am poetry in
its purest form. Open your heart. Release
your soul Let me show you
wonders you could only imagine. Let me
show you Amour of the harp.
3. Tears Of The Beautiful
Please walk from the shadows.
I want to see your eyes. They shine
of lost souls and compassion
for life. I don't understand why do
you cry? The tears of the
beautiful dry like moisture on a winters
day. Such happiness in her
face and radiance in a smile. Although
I cannot hear her voice she
speaks with the tongue of an angel.
Two souls dance in Novembers
air depending on each others trus.t
Silently turning in circles
following the soft violins. Can I be
so bold, as to ask for a
kiss? All I dream is her, I've known her
forever. Please take my hand
now And I'll lead you to the light.
Yet still confusion erupts.
How can beauty as such weep in sorrow?
Embrace me and I promise
the pain will diminish.
4. My Agony, My Ecstasy
Gorge in my darkness, for
all to laugh at me. My undying love,
that you hold in chains.
Bound by reality, controlling my every
thougt. Visions of your beauty,
deep in my memory. Please try to
forgive me. The pain always
returns. Yesterdays smile is tomorrows
tears. Oh God, What have
I done? Our love together was strong. A
bond between two souls. Lost
within my slumber. Tonight I sleep
alone. My mind no longer
lusts, My heart no longer loves. Half my
life is gone from me. A mistake
I must endure. Containing my
emotions, from time we spent
alone. Surrender to my past, live
with a false sense of pride.
Every time I close my eyes I yearn
the sweet scent of you Always
remember the love we made and
cherish It's silent beauty
The softness of your touch, the warm
glow of your skin Is in my
every fantasy. Your velvet lips upon my
neck will release my torture
inside.
5. Bestow My Desire
My hands are bound, by the
sound of a bell. A chime I cherish and
respect. A divine song, played
upon my chest and echoing through
my soul. Not a voice, nor
any angel can bring me to my knees
faster, then the softness
of it's touch. Drowning my strength, as
it turns into my tears. Weakness
prevails as I'm swallowed deep
into trance. Whispering tones,
emerge from my bliss. They surround
my heart in gold. To only
touch the physical side would lock me in
for eternity.
6. Chorus Of Jasmine
Between my love, and my heart
lies a weeping willow. Shading the
secret of our yearning. This
perfect place is ours. But the
sunrise is mine. It will
always remind me of our passion. Gaze
into It's beauty and lose
yourself in my arms. For this is a night
of pure perfection and nothing
can take that away. Now my Eden has
a queen and I will stop at
nothing to give you my rhapsody. Please
accept my life and in exchange,
give yourself to me. You will have
no fears. I will protect
you until I die but without you, my death
is certain. You're my inspiration.
You're my thoughts and dreams.
I need your love. I need
your sunshine. You're the one.
7. Sadness Rains
Mournful overcast, sorrowful
state. Gray distant sky, pensive
turmoil. In heavy spirits,
wretched, forlorn. Joyless and dismal,
stricken with grief. Lightning
evades a world overhead. Angels in
tears, sadness rains. Pouring
tear drops, from heavens above.
Essence of purity, on hell
stricken land. Blind to the fact, no
shame in unleashed. Buried
in agony, the storm prevails. One with
sadness, joined eternally.
Wallow in misery, 'till death do us
part.
8. A Dirge Of Sorrow
Bury my face in rotten love
once sweet. Engulfed in kisses of
utmost devotion. My conscience
tells me to leave it all behind as
I wander into a world of
heartache. To remember once, a life
shared by two. In the midnight
air, the love was ours. To my
surprise, It's now only mine
as my blind eyes sparkle in
twilight...Alone. Now I speak
to your grave in a childish voice as
a burning passion entwines
me. An elephant caught in the spiders
web, I'm at a loss without
you. I rest my head upon your stone and
caress engravings of thought.
All that's left is remembrance of
life. Is it to late to say
good-bye?
9. Nothing Earthly Save
The Thrill
(Sorrow) Fearless is the heart
of he who divides the Gods. For I
could never expose my heart
to such madness. Can you hear it
calling? Can you hear the
sound? The bell tolls once for every
hour in my life. Each chime
tells a new tale. Tales of sorrow, and
pain. But when will it play
the song of love? Drowning in this sea
of misery, I never lose hope.
Can you see why I carry such a
mountain of pain? I never
thought you could. I only hoped you
would (Promise) How did you
find me? It does not matter now. The
only thing that exists is
our fears. I can feel your pain
inflicted by the ones who
care not and I promise to mend your
broken heart. (Hunting) An
endless search to free my soul. This
night I shall not fail. No
man can escape this madness. I will
find the last of the dogs.
Imprisoned by their own black hearts.
There is no escape from my
tenacious grip. (Punishment) Look at
me. Stare into the eyes of
your Messiah. It is I who decides who
lives and who dies. On this
night you shall witness my conquest.
How dare you violate what
belongs to me? Now beg me for your life
and watch as I laugh at your
tears. (Clouds) Wake up my love.
Please don't cry for us.
The pain has ended and we now rest on our
cloud. Nothing can touch
you here. You are safe from the dogs of
past. Our fear no longer
haunts us. We only exist amoung the
flowers.
For Every Leaf That Falls
(1997)
1. For Every Leaf That
Falls
Embrace the silence
And listen to me
Our time is short
And my words are pure
For every song the angels
sing
And for every leaf that falls
I will be thinking of you
And I'll blow you a kiss
I used to dream of the blue
in your eyes
Now my dreams are color blind
Clenching my fist to crush
this pain
Its always the hate in my
smile that devours me
Transcending down far beneath
my means
A final breath of you to
keep with me
Infantile tears are melting
the morning snow
And shiver I will, for the
heat in you is gone
Never forget to smile
As you look upon this world
somewhere I'll remain alone
thinking of the morning past
2. The Jealous Sun
Awaken my soul and open my
eyes
Show me the journey and feed
my mind
Take me away to lands of
green
Forever falling through Gods
black veil
Darker spirits than this,
have fallen past my eyes
Even through this twilight,
my smile lies to me
I can smell the scent of
dark and cold winters frost
Deeper in the void we look
searching for a golden glance
The jealous Sun is burning
for me
So many years my heaven has
wept
25 winters of mourn
In darkness I reach out for
light
Sighs from above
Rain down on me
Pitiful heart
Always alone
Face down I lay, I'm forced
to lick the earth
Cold rain drops far, covering
me, soothing my pain
Swelling eyes, fill with
blood, blinding me, visions of red
Bitter sweet, taste of life,
broken man, I spit on your gift
3. Dawn Breaks
Dawn Breaks
And here we walk eluding
the night
Telling you tales of how
I am lost
You know things now that
I can't explain
And I must avoid your beg
for words
I can see by the look in your
eyes
The trust you once had is
gone
I can't hide from what I am
Come with me and leave this
behind
Close your eyes and dream
of me
Waste not your time for now
dawn breaks
Shield myself from the tears
on your cheek
Open my arms to greet your
embrace
Hold me closely and absorb
my warmth
Let me go now and tremble
alone
And here we walk eluding the
night
Telling you tales of how
I am lost
You know things now that
I can't explain
And I must avoid your beg
for words
I can't hide from what I am
Come with me and leave this
behind
Close your eyes and dream
of me
Waste not your time for now
dawn breaks
Together we can hear
The screaming butterfly
United as one
Gods will fall to their knees
Of Sculptured Ivy And
Stone Flowers (1999)
1. With Rue And Fire
Walking alone with a tempting
grin to follow the voice that guides
a small frown. Sobs echo
past these blinded eyes and deny me of my
happiness. Dismal shades
of light brightens my path to solitude
and sympathy. In some sick
way I enjoy my pain. It always seems to
indulge me. Frozen walls
of ice guard my every dream, protecting
me from what seems real.
With rue and fire, all demons are cast
away. With water and stone,
the sadness drowns in vain. On thorns
and glass, I'm tortured with
love. In tears and blood, I forgive
you once again. This day,
I remember the cloudy sky In which I
traveled high above. But
now my wings are broken and I am left
alone.
2. The Jealous Sun
Awaken my soul and open my
eyes. Show me the journey and feed my
mind. Take me away to lands
of green. Forever falling through Gods
black veil. Darker spirits
than this, have fallen past my eyes.
Even through this twilight,
my smile lies to me. I can smell the
scent of dark and cold winters
frost. Deeper in the void we look
searching for a golden glance.
The jealous Sun is burning for me.
So many years my heaven has
wept. 25 winters of mourn. In darkness
I reach out for light Sighs
from above rain down on me. Pitiful
heart always alon.e Face
down I lay, I'm forced to lick the earth.
Cold rain drops far, covering
me, soothing my pain. Swelling eyes,
fill with blood, blinding
me, visions of red. Bitter sweet, taste
of life, broken man, I spit
on your gift.
3. Suffer The Red Dream
I can see the twilight and
twisted shadows it creates. I can hear
the heartbeat of lifes lost
sorrow. Never once can one man dream
the absence of a holy shrine.
Eating dirt to fill this void that
remains empty and dry. Liquid
from my tears that plummet for
eternity, help to drown the
flowers and sprout yet another cry.
For all these fallen angels
and the Gods in which they serve,
where will they go when it
all comes crashing down? Your smile
doesn't help me and your
laughter holds no joy. I never asked for
your pity, or your worthless
love. All of this means nothing to a
heart that does not beat,
for this is no salvation and the
darkness shrouds my face.
In between this granite frown and a
smile made from blood, the
placement of my hands shall cover my
eyes of black. No words can
leave my mouth for my throat is coarse
and dry, and my legs quake
beneath me, falling before my pain.
Kneel before the suffering
and cover your face with earth. Smother
yourself with elegance and
dream the dream of red.
4. All The Beauty Twice
Again
A moonlit breeze softly flows
past the ancient night. Always
calling out to the saints
who hear nothing. Never to see the
royality of age, and the
beauty of life. Fortune comes for all
man, inside a fragile wish.
Forever sending guides of hope unto
this very flame. To burn
away every dream. All the beauty, twice
again. To whisper in the
wind. Follow me to the edge of the sun,
where only the coldest of
hearts can survive. Laughing to mock me,
in sadness we dwell. Standing
alone, all time stands still, for
you.
5. Reaping Forest Calm
Cowards form the veil. Sampling
of the salt. Desire looking glass.
In evening they shall come.
Pity stains our hands. Insects bite my
eyes. Forever calling home.
Reaping forest calm. Long painful
hymns, a dirge of blackened
day. Falling to my knees to kiss the
horses tongue. Moonlight
invades, cancerous lust. Drawing a smile,
bold men have tried. With
sugar we taste, through darkness we
fall. In memories lost hope,
I seal my eyes. Through vertigo's
touch, and a northern winds
breeze, onward I search and forever
I'm lost. It feels like an
eternity since I last saw the light on
your face, and if I recall,
you left me the wind and taught me to
fly. I must have you for
one last time and I will pay for my sins
with one thousand lashes
from the roses stem across the very chest
that holds my beating heart.
6. For Every Leaf That
Falls
Embrace the silence and listen
to me. Our time is short and my
words are pure. For every
song the angels sing and for every leaf
that falls, I will be thinking
of you and I'll blow you a kiss. I
used to dream of the blue
in your eyes, now my dreams are color
blind. Clenching my fist
to crush this pain, Its always the hate
in my smile that devours
me. Transcending down far beneath my
means. A final breath of
you to keep with me. Infantile tears are
melting the morning snow.
And shiver I will, for the heat in you
is gone. Never forget to
smile as you look upon this world.
Somewhere I'll remain alone
thinking of the morning past.
7. Serenity Forgotten
A feather falls and ripples
cross the pond. Reaching the end of
nothing, turning stone to
dust. Careless are the children who fail
to see the means. Splash
away the visions of serenity forgotten.
8. Forever With Unopened
Eye
Enjoy the sunlight and ride
the winds. Forever warm, for I see
now, happiness facades my
sorrow. This outer smile is torn by
grief, and my sunlight soon
fades away, and I watch in silence.
Lost here in a poetic trance,
my paradise pounds inside my chest.
I remember the days forever
with unopened eye. As quickly as it
all began, the darkness overwhelms
my joy. How is this so? How can
it all be gone? Is there
no solution? Welcome to my mind. Is there
no help for me? Forever with
unopened eye.
9. Dawn Breaks
And here we walk eluding the
night. Telling you tales of how I am
lost. You know things now
that I can't explain. And I must avoid
your beg for words. I can
see by the look in your eyes, the trust
you once had is gone. I can't
hide from what I am. Come with me
and leave this behind. Close
your eyes and dream of me. Waste not
your time for now dawn breaks.
Shield myself from the tears on
your cheek. Open my arms
to greet your embrace. Hold me closely
and absorb my warmth. Let
me go now and tremble alone. Together we
can hear The screaming butterfly.
United as one Gods will fall to
their knees.
The Knowing (2000)
1. Awaken
My eyes open with dawn.
The sun shines on my face.
I will die someday,
until that day,
I embrace the knowing.
2. Harmony Divine
Come follow me,
in the dark void running
away from the burning of the fallen sun.
The pain I have shown you
is more than anyone could endure,
It is your end as shown in
a dream.
I can carry you - far from
this place,
only time will heal - the
truth I give.
Empathy for the helpless
ones,
I can't save them all from
the darkness that encircles us,
but now is not your time,
I forbid this to be.
You can't run forever - It
touches all.
All love is lost - in the
eye of the flame.
Sacrifice in the name of
your God,
to splendor in life and wallow
in fear of the days you await,
but now is not your time,
I take you with me.
In harmony, I break my smile.
Vertigo, the truth is revealed.
Careless, sin-filled life,
mourning,
before your end.
Help me, I cannot see,
I am blind, to all that surrounds
me.
Falling, from my grasp, reach
out, and take my hand.
Fearful, inner child.
Dreaming, your time away.
Curse the day, I saw your
face,
for now I see, your tragic
end.
Forward into life•s calling,
and reap its pleasures divine.
3. Shadows Of Light
A dream, shown to me by countless
shapes.
Visions that will never leave
my mind.
Voices that cry out to me.
Saddened by the wars within,
and lifted high above the
crowds below.
Spirit felt promises that
wind the clocks of time,
and pass me by in a sudden
rage of light.
In shadows I am prophecy.
In sunlight I am death.
On water I will always walk.
In fire no one burns.
Falling far from crimson
skies,
all eyes rest upon me.
Enchanting winds that call
your name,
and place fear in your smile.
I have been shown the end
of my world,
and the beginning of the
new age.
Red is cast upon my eyes.
I dream of the rain and smile.
Vary your speed to which
you live,
and count every last grain
of sand.
Clouds invade my thought
no more.
Sunlight has drifted away.
May the moon above guide
me, and save me from my pain.
Forgive me not, I'm losing
control.
I fear the dreams that dance
within.
How can I ever leave?
The goad of your tongue plunges
into my soul
4. Silent Tomorrow
Eternity - A gift I no longer
want.
Forever - I can't go on with
these endless nights.
My sanity has been stripped
away.
Everything is beauty, and
I have no love to share.
Silent tomorrow, I want to
live my life once more.
Visions of grandeur, I want
to taste the void extreme.
Each time I close my eyes,
I only wish for my end to come.
No angels sing for me, and
the light of my life dims away.
Silent tomorrow, I want to
live my life once more.
Visions of grandeur, I want
to taste the void extreme.
Destiny awaits me, I cannot
carry on this way.
Coward of the dream,
In silence I will rest my
eyes.
Crippled by fear, the sights
I see.
No means to this end.
This is my only way.
Silent tomorrow, I want to
live my life once more.
Visions of grandeur, I want
to taste the void extreme.
Destiny awaits me, I cannot
carry on this way.
Coward of the dream,
In silence I will rest my
eyes.
5. In Faith
Falling down, far from Grace.
Confusing me, for these gifts
I have received.
Challenging, the faith I
have in tomorrow.
Open eyes, to witness this
miracle.
Cure the sick, or destroy
a world, this gift is mine, to wield its strength.
What's right and wrong,
It's my decision, no man
alive, can deny me that.
Cloudy skies, and blood-filled
moons, worldwide plagues, and raging tides.
Seven signs, To the end of
time, this is all lies, I hold the only key.
why can't you see, I can
show you his face.
If every fear of your life,
can only be swept away.
Believe in my sanity, carried
by faith,
the truth that binds, the
words I speak.
Thunder claps, and angels
cry, inside this prophet,
behold a new Messiah.
I can take you far away,
far from your scarlet lives.
I hold tomorrow's fate and
grip this entity.
Trust in me, I'll tell you
all of final beauty, and dying smiles.
Put your faith in me.
Falling.
6. Searching The Betrayal
I have searched for the words
and emptiness is all I find.
The countless lies of love
that fell from spoken dreams. (her)
What do I say to a man who
knows my thoughts?
I thought I loved you in
the lifetime we shared,
but I always knew you were
never the one.
Even though you made me your
queen,
the feelings for you never
grew.
Wasted time in life pass
by, shattered mirrors we built as one.
An aging world of broken
hearts
and I am added to the long
list of souls.
I'll never regret giving
my all for you and to my grave,
your betrayal will die. (her)
If we could go back, and
repeat this life again,
I would stop at the day my
love failed you.
I would pray to above for
those feelings to return,
and not let my wandering
eyes take me from you.
Know in my heart, that there
is a place,
that your disappointment
has broken.
7. Last God
Please take this away,
I never wanted this pain.
Why have you left me here
all alone?
I will always cry for you.
Catching the fallen tears
from my eyes,
dreaming of life with you,
all is lost tonight.
This pain is killing me,
there's nothing that I can
do.
The visions of your face,
Makes my stomach sick.
You were stripped from me,
when my back was turned.
I should have been there
for you,
It should be me that's gone.
I can't let you win,
I just won't walk away.
It's time I see the end,
and leave this gift
behind. You're no friend
to me,
You've caused me too much
pain.
So you step beyond my grasp,
escape this last God's fate.
(her)
In chambers light, you pine
over me and I can only look upon you and smile.
I wish the pain would disappear.
A frigid breath on the back
of your neck,
a soft glowing voice that
you always hear.
I'm sorry for the pain,
I'm sorry for the lies.
with open arms, I await you.
An emptiness I can never
fill,
a loss of all my being.
Carry away my lust for your
taste.
A blue rose for my soiled
life.
Reliving our moments over
again,
consumes my every day.
No more can I keep going
on with this guilt,
You've taken everything that
I care about.
Eating away at my own pathetic
life,
the skies have turned to
blood on this very night.
I will see you again, and
I tremble at the thought.
8. In Memories Past
The scent of you is always
on my mind,
searching for the strength
to carry on.
Buried deep within my soul,
your memory will punish me.
I no longer see a future
with your smile.
When shadows fall dark upon
your stone,
and dying leaves have covered
all the words,
I hold the answers to the
questions that I dare not speak.
In this darkest hour I'm
alone.
A careless walk through fields
of virtue,
and calling out to every
shattered dream.
Circling the innermost thoughts,
for this is the day I have
truly died.
The scent of you is always
on my mind,
searching for the strength
to carry on.
Buried deep within my soul,
your memory will punish me.
I no longer see a future
with your smile.
When shadows fall dark upon
your stone,
and dying leaves have covered
all the words,
I hold the answers to the
questions that I dare not speak.
In this darkest hour I'm
alone.
9. The Day I Return
I can't believe, the hell
that has taken my life.
Stripped me away, from every
hope and dream.
Countless days, for a thousand
years,
in a cold and lonely place,
I right the wrongs.
On solid ground, and a mind
now clear,
it all seems to have left
me,
forever wanting no more.
Picking up the shards,
of my broken life and placing
each piece in perfect harmony.
This is the day,
The day I return,
to claim my victory,
and laugh in man's face.
To once again take a breath,
and not fight back a single
tear.
To hold my head up high,
and unveil my pride once
again.
To live a life of normal
days,
and sleep an entire night.
Nothing but pain will rest
on my mind.
Never forgetting the smile
she gave.
Spending my days, thinking
of you, knowing
that we will be one again.
Return to me.
10. Aura Blue
Today, I am a different man,
yesterday was meaningless.
I once saw with the sight
of a God,
and I hear the voices pray.
My dreams were reality, even
the darkest of all cast aside.
It reaches out to grab my
throat,
and squeeze the breath from
me,
to show me sights of days
to come,
and nights of restlessness.
In a good man's heart, a
gift this would truly be,
but left in my hands,
lies a cold bitter fear.
So I awake with a newfound
friend,
who begs me to play,
who taunts one tired eye,
and I shudder to think of
what I've become,
as my journey has ended,
to capture my ease.
My pride has returned,
and life is anew,
accepting my fate,
and remembrance of what I
saw, of what I lived.
Sleep.
With closed eyes, I dream
of your return and in the darkness,
I again see a light.
A perfect glow of aura blue,
with open arms I greet my
old friend.
To Welcome The Fade (2002)
1. Not The Strong
How many times have I fallen
before you
How much longer can I go
on
To raise to my feet, to try
this game again
I often point fingers of
blame
If only my mother knew the
real me
Her heart would break, for
I am shame
Not the strong man she raised
from birth
A coward, a child, and a
scared soul
In my dreams, I can fly away
And look back through tears
of pain
Even if I were to never awake
I would still have my downtime
If only my mother knew the
real me
Her heart would break, for
I am shame
Not the strong man she raised
from birth
A coward, a child, and a
scared soul
A sweet embrace from honest
love
Just won't be enough this
time
If I had the cure, to save
myself
I would then know how you
feel
If only my mother knew the
real me
Her heart would break, for
I am shame
Not the strong man she raised
from birth
A coward, a child, and a
scared soul
2. Broken
I am broken.
In spirit, body, and mind
Forever cold to faith in
life
Mother of night, embrace
me
I have not forgotten
Looking back on the years
of last
With so much pain to bare
I am broken
Nights forgotten its son of
brave
And turned her back on bitterness
Torn is my duality
Judging the force of things
yet old
Trivia in forsaken thoughts
Of tomorrow's crushing blow
A calming plea, follow the
day
Two fold, I stand to ache
Given to me by pitiful life
Desperate time, to pass in
stride
How does anyone ever know?
False dreams, and lesser
faith
Can you look me in the eyes
And tell me everything's
all right?
If we talk about tomorrow
How can I stop your tears?
Separation of life and mind
Comfort, the quest for time
Suffer day, and hallowed
night
In dark realms to betray
Left here for the devouring
dogs
To feast upon my very pride
One thing I will never forget
That I am only a man
And I am broken
Failure I cannot fix
False hope for nothing
This is the life I lead
And tomorrow will not change
3. Lost In A Day
I can't control when I was
afraid
So far away, from any choice
I have
Here in this day, I continue
to fear
Simple as I am, It's always
on my mind
Somewhere inside, a voice
is heard
To remind me that I have
lost control
I have lost my will, to continue
this way
With every waking breath,
I decide...
How I live my life is far
from normal days
See my downward fall, and
allow me to lie
Somewhere inside, a voice
is heard
To remind me that I have
lost control
I give into my life, and color
it with black
I listen to my heart, and
hear nothing
If every day is cold, and
the skies have turned to gray
Only then will I be happy
with this pain
I have come to realize, my
trials are before me
These are the rules set forth,
to be lost in a day
I can't control when I was
afraid
So far away, from any choice
I have
Here in this day, I continue
to fear
Simple as I am, to be lost
in a day
4. Within My Flesh
My bride to comfort me
when all seems lost
A kiss upon my brow
to soften my suffering
She means so well
I haven't the heart
To tell her
my smile was forced.
My mother cries for me when
no one will
Her words of compassion swell
my eyes
"It's not fair this has happened
to you,
And I'd do anything to take
away your pain"
My rage to help me through
the day
And visions of black to cure
my loss
I taunt the pain to prove
it's real
And greet my facade with
a grin
Look what your God has made
me
Placing spikes within my
flesh
A crown of nails for my sunken
head
To shy away from this freak
5. If Forever
On the days you long for me
And the cold nights of grey
(Hear me)
I ask you to forgive me
And bow my head in shame
(Feel me)
I promise, I will never leave
you
I will not go on without
you
If the light calls upon me
I will remain, waiting for
you
(Live for me)
I've never felt so empty before
I never cared more for us
(Pray for me)
I promise, I will never leave
you
I will not go on without
you
If the light calls upon me
I will remain, waiting for
you
Somewhere along the days of
my life
I found my faith in you
(Cry for me)
6. The Spirit Seed
In just one breath
Your dreams will fade
A moment in time
For fear to embrace
The future... is my enemy
Long days.... and endless
nights
Pain awakes my sleep
And ends in a silent barrage
of calm
Look at me though jaded eyes
Forever see the mask I wear
Never feel pity for me
It's the way my life lives
Beaten by the only life I
know
Forced upon the spirit seed
I only wish I had the strength
To say goodbye
At what time did you turn
your back?
I pay for this with every
breath
And all you do is preach
through man
Of how merciful you can be
Then you shall not fail
For every time you close
your eyes
I'll be there to greet you
7. Torn
(life)
I long for days like this
My heart pounds when you
are near
The gift of life
Treasure it, for it is pure
Embrace it with all your
heart
Not a thousand years of pain
Would be worth the loss of
this
I hold for you a special
gift
And on this day, a new life
begins
(torn)
Facade the day of forest
green
And calm my breath with words
of plight
A question I ponder this
hour
The light for me, or shadows
engulf
(death)
I am the answers you seek
You stand before me
And I see your sorrow
Even now, in your agony
You can have your doubt
For one last time
(torn)
Do I make make the sacrifice?
To walk among the restless
souls?
How can I let this go on?
Torn between love and life
All is dead in my eyes
(death)
Close your eyes and welcome
the truth
Innocence is so sweet
For only the aging of the
flesh
Shall rain upon the sorrows
of life
Admire this touch of heaven
Before it fades.
I remember days of old,
And through your grief, one
stands clear.
I can see you forge a smile
All these flowers are turning
to snow
For all is lost in your heart
It's only her love that keeps
you alive
Now's the time for your pain
to end
(life)
How can I ever live without
you?
This all seems so perfect
So perfect, until I dream
of you
And your smile is my sunshine
You deserve more then this
Your saviour has come
A strong soul to carry on
To take you home
I need you here with me
Follow me now
To pick me up when I fall
Before the sunlight fades
8. The Lifeless Silhouette
I just want to close my eyes
So I can forget about today
Forget about what lies tomorrow
And only take place in the
realm of paradise
To be beaten each day
And lower my head
As if its my own fault
Forgotten about as night
falls
Restless nights that are filled
with guilt
And invite me into their
empty embrace
I never saw this coming
And I now know that i'm not
alone
I can only wish that i'm
the last
And no one will suffer my
fate
It would take an eternity
in hell
For my heart to rest in peace.
To strike down this hate filled
soul
And give back the pain you've
caused
Would only satisfy
My craving for blood.
I will see you in the end
And I will laugh at your
pain
So I damn your fucking life
And I pray you suffer long
And all the angels turn their
backs
From the site of your pitiful
face
No God will save your soul
For there is no love for
you
You left that all behind
The day you learned to fucking
speak
9. Dark Fields For Brillance
Solid shades of passions lie
With countless eyes to stare
your sleep
Wallow in terror of nights
fetal embrace
Cold tongues taste the fear
A dark vision to scare my
soul
And shy away as the madness
calls upon me
To close my eyes at the end
of day
Welcome dark clad armies of
fear
More then novels have told
my tale
And campfire dreams that
warm the soul
With every moment of every
night
The shadows dance the walls
And I know she looks upon
me from afar
To close my eyes at the end
of day
Evokes dark fields for brilliance
Her cold smile haunts the
after thought
A fate for us all to be taken
away
From the empty days of hope,
deny the darkness
Follow my voice, we'll run
far away from here
If only to hide, to escape
this life
And live forever, forever
in the sun
For all the nights I lie awake
And stare into the void
Just once I wish to grasp
Some glimmer of hope
A cowards reign
The last to know
Forward, down
And through my eyes
The Pale Haunt Departure
(2005)
1. The Pale Haunt Departure
Born upon angelic dirt
we crawl from filth to rise
Speak my name for the sake
of life
For this creed will slowly
turn
Light escapes this shell of
mine
The pale haunt departure
A dying wish to rise again
And leave behind a scarecrows
fate
Only those who have suffered
long
Can find the light within
the shadows
A first hand trial of mislead
hope
For this is the day of our
wake
Light escapes this shell of
mine
The pale haunt departure
A dying wish to rise again
And leave behind a scarecrows
fate
So I rise above to look below
and see the shedding coil
The ascension process to
reunite
my passion for life through
pain
Your trust in faith
Light escapes this shell of
mine
The pale haunt departure
A dying wish to rise again
And leave behind a scarecrows
fate
2. Swallowed By The Moon
I'm sorry you will never know
me,
But know I always loved you.
Will you remember when I kept
you safe?
Will you remember when I
made you smile?
Once again the daylight fades,
and I'm swallowed by the moon
Will tomorrow bring a new
day of hope?
Will this experience fill
you with rage?
The enemy time, knocks at
my home
I can no longer hide
Please forgive me, I never
meant to leave
But know that I had you as
my final thought
Will you remember when I held
you tight?
Will you remember the sound
of my voice?
Once again the daylight fades,
and I'm swallowed by the moon
Will this experience scar
your fragile mind?
Will you remember when we
would both laugh?
Memories is all that you have
And I'm sorry I failed you
in life
I wanted more for you then
I could provide
Be strong and make your mother
proud
Don't cry... The tears in
your eyes
My time... To say my goodbyes
Heaven waits... My soul to
arise
Torture, torture... My pain
finally dies
Will you remember that I tried
my best?
Will you remember the father
I was?
Once again the daylight fades,
and I'm swallowed by the moon
Will you look back and smile
for me?
Will you remember me when
I have gone?
Memories is all that you have
And I'm sorry I failed you
in life
I wanted more for you then
I could provide
Be strong and make your mother
proud
3. Autumn Reflection
I remember yesterday
The rain fell to the earth
For I dream of your arrival
And color my dark world with
faith
Knowing you would be the strong
one
To keep my focus in close
view
I thank the heavens above
For the angel beside me today
The guardian of my sanity
The one who will save my
soul
If I ever doubt the faith
I hold
I only need one smile from
you
And an autumn reflection
will deliver me to your arms
Someday you will understand
How much you mean to me
for every day that passes
me by
I long for the person you
will become
I thank the heavens above
For the angel beside me today
The guardian of my sanity
The one who will save my
soul
If I ever doubt the faith
I hold
I only need one smile from
you
And an autumn reflection
will deliver me to your arms
I am stronger now
Since you came into my life
With a thought of your smile
I remember yesterday
4. Dark World Burden
It's all so clear to me now
A fraction of the man I used
to be
For every breath I take draws
in the fear
Only I know that the worst
is yet to come
I live in a dark world, where
no light shines through
I carry this burden with
every step I take
Thrust myself into a new
days end
And focus on the hour glass,
to help pass the time
Day to day I push myself on
My facade can fool the strongest
mind
And my loved ones can only
watch from afar
A single mirror to view the
void
Tragic yesterdays, and unseen
futures sleep
Footprints in the blood from
my wounded heart
My dark world is where I
call home
Until the day comes, and
the light calls my name
My arcane cell is covered
in resent
I never asked for any of
this
I follow the path which leads
me to nothing
Searching for my smile I
lost long ago
I stand alone in the company
of none
Cheated by reality, philosopher
of the gray
A brave inner child stands
strong in refuse
A treasure of impurity will
find a way to breed
5. In The Absence Of Grace
Heaven is so far away from
this Hell, Carried by the wings of shadows pain
Why did you turn your back,
And leave me without your grace
Fallen so far away from the
light, Courage will no longer be by my side
I stand here all alone, Waiting
for you to see my need
I'll give my life for you,
You'll see the fallen man
Heaven is so far away from
this Hell, Carried by the wings of shadows pain
Why did you turn your back,
And leave me without your grace
Fallen so far away from the
light, Courage will no longer be by my side
I stand here all alone, Waiting
for you to see my need
I'll give my life for you,
You'll see the fallen man
I had trust in you, no more
lies, I end this now, and walk away
So pathetic it's come to
this, If you only could see my side
I live with this every day,
and the struggle overwhelms me
For the loveless, And for
my wake
Only when I close my eyes,
And the day draws to an end
Thoughts of you stronger
then me, increase my faith in hate
For the child, And for my
heart
Only when I close my eyes,
And the day draws to an end
Thoughts of you stronger
then me, Increase my faith in hate
Always dreaming of better
days, Since cast out from your sight
I'll live with the life I
lead, And smile that you're no more
Why did you turn your back,
And leave me without your grace
Fallen so far away from the
light, Courage will no longer be by my side
I stand here all alone, Waiting
for you to see my need
I'll give my life for you,
You'll see the fallen man
I'll give my life for you,
You'll see the fallen man
6. The Dead Leaf Echo
Since the day I let you believe,
that a grand life I would provide
I am haunted by the failure
you see before you, consuming the echo
To travel the road of our
dreams, with my back against the wall
All I can do, is look the
other way, and pretend that your face held a
smile.
Not to see your sullen eyes,
staring past my soul, into the darkness of
night.
I feel I've failed you, when
we both know, I never had the chance, to say
hello.
Far away from your warmth
I fade
Silently, I bid you farewell,
and wallow in the moment
So very small, this distance
between us, to travel so long, and gain no
ground
The very face I see in the
mirror, knows the truth behind the lies
For my trust, I hear the
dead leaf echo, and the answer awaits us on the
other side
Far away from your warmth
I fade
Silently, I bid you farewell,
and wallow in the moment
Looking back to the days when
we were poor, and all we had was each other
You looked so sad, and almost
ashamed to have me at your side
In circles spins my mind,
and the vertigo makes me sick
All I can do, is look the
other way, and pretend that your face held a
smile.
Not to see your sullen eyes,
staring past my soul, into the darkness of
night.
I feel I've failed you, when
we both know, I never had the chance, to say
hello.
7. Through A Child's Eyes
I once had a vision
the beauty of two graced
the sky
It left me with nothing but
hurt
For I knew this couldn't
be true
Looking back through a childs
eyes
I have been betrayed by time
Now I dream with a sense
of pride
And I grieve the shame of
mankind
I once was left behind
All the promises and empty
words
Forced me to walk upon the
earth
Alone in the shadow of man
Looking back through a childs
eyes
I have been betrayed by time
Now I dream with a sense
of pride
I grieve the shame of mankind
I once had a vision
The fall of man before its
time
Again I knew with innocent
eyes
You should have saved us
all
Looking back through a childs
eyes
I have been betrayed by time
Now I dream with a sense
of pride
I grieve the shame of mankind
8. Collapse Of The Fallen
Throe
I gaze the beauty with sinful
eyes
I dream of the fallen embrace
Rest before me, whisper my
name
And I'll break the spine
of your love
Squalor brings the insects
That feast upon the filth
Only now you witness
Collapse of the falling throe
Come to me, with arms outstretched
Sweet tears that kiss your
face
When the arms of hate are
holding on
I'll take what should be
mine
A love for you consumes the
heart
This cruelty will not be
for nothing
For you will be ruled by
an iron hand
And somewhere the master
shows his face
A grand design of vented wealth
Sail on wings of golden pride
A blindness that will free
your mind
To carry the seed for the
years ahead
Squalor brings the insects
That feast upon the filth
Only now you witness
Collapse of the falling throe
Amidst pure violent emotion
The eyes tell the story of
betrayal
Buried deep within the womb
My reason to be scalded by
your sins
My ignorance to be judged
A sworn voice to tell me
the lies
The mask will be raised to
reveal truth
And the sun will no longer
shine
Blood for blood, you will
be mine
Through the pain I will rise
Driven by this longing desire
To be the one who loves you
forever
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